I was able to con Grace into gettin me a copy of her poem she wrote for that contest. After I got it, I sat out framin it and settin it into place in the guild's tavern. It not only fits her, but also the fun lovin bunch of this guild. After she saw it, she was speechless. I'm gettin rather good at makin people around me speechless here lately.

I sat out the other day thinkin and talkin to Val. I'm glad I talked to that warrior, she made me realize a lot of things that I had forgotten because of the fear. So, when the rogue woke, I told him I needed to talk to him. I told him how sorry I was for bein foolish, for lettin my fears over whelm me. I gave him the ring that I carved lock picks into and told him my answer. I don't think I've ever seen him so happy. All he could do was pick me up and hug me tightly, grinnin from ear to ear. I must admit, I am beyond happy right now. I know I did the right thing here.

After wards, Tus woke and wanted me to open the tb's he got. We had just been missin each other for the past few days, I was happy to do so. So off I went to meet him. I asked the rogue to keep me company while I waited for that warrior, everyone knows how slow they can be when they want to be, and I knew I would have to wait a bit for him. Once he did get there, I opened two of the boxes, which was junk, which is the way my luck runs some times, Alloran did the others, and well, I know that warrior was pleased with what he got, although now I have to think of somethin to get him for what he gave us.

So, things are goin good now that I've gotten my head straight. Grace didn't hurt me for what I did, Alloran is beyond happy at the moment, hopefully he will stay that way, all my close friends are happy as well. Things, for once, are linin up to where they should be..... Now to just find an ingot for him somewhere.........

I can't believe what I did. The bad part is, I didn't even realize I was doin it until we talked last eve. Now I feel horrible about it. How can I change that part of me? Seein him like I did last eve, it hurt more than anythin I could imagine. And with him sayin that he was actually lookin forward to that ... I have some serious thinkin to do on everythin. He does know how I feel for him, he does know my heart, but he also knows my fears, and it's those fears that made me tell him what I told him last eve. I am terrified things will change afterwards, that we won't be the same somehow. He understands these fears I have, but then I have disappointed him in the process of voicin these fears to him. So, I have made it my mission for the next few days to really search my heart and figure out what it is I should do. I do know I want to see him happy, but I also know I can't do this just to make him happy, it must be somethin I want also, and I want to be able to do so without the fears hangin over my head..........

Things have been going real good. The rogue leveled a few times, which I thought would never happen. I thought he would stay at level 51 forever. He's now farmin with the spiders, which was always a good spot to farm at. I went to help him get his demon's blood, with no light. I still shudder at the thought of it all. Who would have thought that a rogue such as myself didn't like the dark? I'll admit, I'm terrified of it still, but not as bad as I once was. At least he was there to drive those fears away somewhat.

He's now talkin about carryin me off somewhere. I wish I knew what he had in mind. Everyone knows I hate surprises. I don't know why that is really, just I guess I hate the unknown and not bein able to prepare for it just in case somethin was to happen. And of course there's the worry part that always follows me wherever I am. Although here lately, I ain't done a bit of that at all. Why should I? Everyone in the guild seems to be happy beyond measure, Lil One, I know, she's ecstatic about things, so why is there a need to worry? As for me, well, I'm so happy right now. I've gotten to spend time with the rogue, the guild is lookin good, and a few of the members have awoken from a long slumber. What more could a girl want?

I was able to give the rogue his gift. That is the second time I've made him speechless, wait, no the third time. It's kinda nice knowin I'm able to do that to him. Now he thinks he owes me for it. Why can't he get it into that thick skull of his that I want to do stuff for him? That mess drives me loonies. When will he realize that everyday he is with me is a gift that I treasure?

I was able to sign in a new member last eve also. I just hope she likes it here in the guild. Of course, I do worry about that with all the members, but hey, that's just who I am.

I am still needin to catch up with a few friends, see how they are doin, what I've missed the last few days that I've been sleepin. Now that I'm awake more, somewhat, I'll have to be sure to do just that.....

Their gifts are made. I am still shocked at how they turned out. I just hope I can wait to give it to them both. I've gotten the gift for the rogue, I've had it in my pack, takin it out from time to time to study it, and just stand there amazed that I was able to find this for him. I can't wait to see the look on his face when I give it to him.

Things in the guild have been quiet, almost too quiet. I'm not likin it at all. When it's quiet like this, it gives me time to think, and I don't like where my thoughts go most of the time.

I was able to talk to Grace last eve, I am so happy for her. He really does make her happy, every time I see her, you can feel the love and joy pourin off of her, and that's all because of one person. I've also asked her to help out by bein ambassador for the guild. I've realized, with the help of Alloran and Mir, that I need to start askin for help more than I do when it comes to the guild. It's just so hard for me to do so. I think I would much rather drive myself crazy than to ask someone for help with somethin like the guild. I don't know how to explain it all, it's just a feelin deep inside of me I get..........

With Val and Gar's bondin comin up soon, I've set to work on somethin special for them both. Thanks to the help of the rogue, he's the one that actually brought the idea into my head when he suggested the gift for them. So my steady hand and my trusted dagger is comin back into play here. I will have to really sharpen a lock pick to get the engravin to come out right on it. I ain't worked this hard since I made that ring. So with him sleepin on this beach beside me, and me waitin for the door to open so I can surprise him with somethin, I've started to work on the cuttin of the stones. It is provin to be a more difficult task than what I thought it would be. As I started to cut the first stone, I was terrified that it would crumble in my hands, my hands were shakin so bad, but it didn't, so the two halves are wrapped tightly and tucked away in my pack until the next part is done. For now, I'm waitin for the doorway to open, so I can go get some things done. I didn't want to leave him, sleepin there on that beach, but my duties do call me away. I am so thankful he understands all this. The hardest part is, there's no tellin when we will be able to return, or spend time together like we did last eve. That for me, is the hardest of all.........

I took another to the temple this morn. It always feels good to do so. This one is so excited about everythin, it warms my heart to see that excitement in her eyes. Always makes me smile and just want to protect her from everythin in these lands, not just the demons that lurk around here.

I've thought more about that plan I had wanted to talk to him about. I will talk to him about it, but I don't think I will do it. It's still all a thought right now. I'm sure I will figure it all out eventually, I normally do........

Well, my farmin is done, but I've been thinkin of somethin else for the past few days. I am waitin to talk to him about it, see what his thoughts are before I do it. I'm not sure what he will say to what I am planning. Part of me thinks I'm crazy for even thinkin it myself. Only time will tell, when I'm able to talk to him.

I'm still tryin to talk to a few in the guild about another party. Hopefully I can be able to do that here soon. It has to be good, somethin no one will expect. I have a few ideas runnin through my head, but can't get anythin put together. I need to take some time and get out of those tombs to really straighten my thoughts out, not only on this, but on some other things as well. Here soon I will be able to do so..........

I was able to talk to the rogue for a bit the past few days. I told him of my plans and he said that I needed to learn a lot more patience in order to do so. He's right, even know I want to head out to train some, but I'm not. I am over half way to gettin the plat I need to upgrade my armor. It shouldn't take me much longer. That dang rogue done went and gave me a couple of things to sell on the market, to get me closer to the goal. I told him to hold onto them, he would need em more than I would, but he's just as stubborn, if not more so, than I am and wouldn't listen to me. So, when they do sell, it will get me closer to that goal, but then it won't. I will use that plat to get him somethin.

Everythin else has been goin good. The guild is slowly wakin up, which is always a good thing. I can't wait to see the members smilin faces. They always bring a smile to me and laughter to my ears. Each one of em is capable of doin so in their own way..........